Ved's Newsletter- Edition 159

The dance of masculine and feminine

Hello, friend,

Two weeks ago, I was in the middle of a journaling session, trying to process a lot of overwhelming emotions.

Suddenly, my pen stopped moving. I felt a surge of energy move through my body.

I was looking at a phrase that showed up on the paper: "my next level of healing and growth needs to come by stepping into my authentic, healthy masculine energy."

It felt strange at first, but it resonated deeply. I wanted to explore more.

What does it mean to be into my "authentic, healthy masculine energy"?

I realized my healing journey over the last few years, especially the last few months, has been about connecting with sensitive, feminine energies. That means exploring and understanding my emotions openly. Finding compassion for myself. Becoming comfortable with my sensitive nature.

Embracing sensitivity, stillness, and softness has brought me to a place where I feel… lighter, almost as though I’ve come home to myself.

While that has been healing, it has also felt incomplete in a lot of ways.

I suspect it has to do with my love-hate relationship with moving from my head into taking action. I have always struggled with putting ideas into action—whether they’re plans for projects, fitness routines, or goals for my solo business. It has impacted almost every area of my life.

No matter how hard I tried or forced myself, I could never sustain my initial excitement for any project.

(One reason behind this may relate to my energetic blueprint according to Human Design (a system that combines astrology, I Ching, Kabbalah, and modern science), which has helped me unlock a deeper level of self-acceptance. But that is a story I hope to tell another day!)

Whether it was sticking to an exercise routine or taking concrete steps for my work, I always thought it came down to a lack of willpower.

But recently, I’ve realized willpower wasn’t the complete picture.

The root cause of this procrastination wasn’t the effort itself but an inability to manage my emotional state, especially the discomfort that often came with taking action. I knew I needed to start by being with myself, in stillness, facing those inner feelings without trying to push through or run away from them.

And that’s what my journey of coming to terms with my sensitive, feminine energies was all about.

Naturally, the next step in this journey is integrating the feminine with the masculine.

But this integration of masculine energy doesn’t have to be rooted in force or willpower alone.

My version of healthy masculine energy is about intuitive action, grounded in a deep trust in myself.

These actions aren’t driven by force, inadequacy, or the need to fix anything. I’m slowly discovering that action can come from a place of calm acceptance, from knowing I am enough and wanting to build on that, rather than compensate for it.

This trust in my own capacity has been showing up in small ways like: a morning/evening walk that grounds me, committing to client work with clarity and focus, or completing just one or two things I set out to do each day.

Each small, intentional action feels like a vote for the version of myself I am becoming.

In a way, these small steps are like a conversation between the energies within me—the feminine saying, “I am whole,” and the masculine responding, “Let’s build on that.” This back-and-forth feels like a dance of masculine and feminine energies, each moving in harmony, supporting the other.

In these little steps, I am beginning to experience that I am already whole and now, it’s just a matter of letting that wholeness move.

This feeling of taking action from a place of “enough” rather than “not enough” is entirely new to me.

But I am sensing subtle changes already. Slowly, a deep, almost visceral trust has been taking root.

Every action I take, no matter how small, reinforces this sense that I’m moving toward a more complete version of myself.

It’s no longer about moving from my head to action; it’s about recognizing and being somatically aware of my wholeness and taking action from that sense of wholeness and acceptance at all levels.

This integration isn’t something I feel happens overnight.

It’s more like building a bridge, one step at a time. As I lean into trusting the masculine energy within me, I’m learning that embodying both sides of myself is the only way I can act authentically.

Have you experienced a similar dance of feminine and masculine energies in your life? What has it been like for you?

Would love to hear your thoughts and experiences! :)

Until next time,
Love,
Ved